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God is such a gentleman. He is letting me get used to being whole and healed by peeling off my pain first. To get me used to living in that freedom. I think if I got up and started walking right now, I’d need a minute to wrap my head around Him doing the impossible! He’s a gentle lover. Preparing my heart and perception to know what this feels like first. So intentional with His plans for me. For now, I will stay firmly tucked under the shadow of His wing as I adapt to my new reality. He really loves us. His timing is perfect.

Hello! My name is Tisa Caruso, and I’d like to welcome you to my first sermon! I’m a recent graduate of the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. I have been diagnosed with a very rare muscle and bone disease called FOP, that Jesus healed on the cross. Today is Pentecost Sunday! I wanted to talk to you about the impact of the power of the resurrection after Jesus rose from the dead. I’m going to take you on a timeline of some of the events after the tomb, and learn how we are joint heirs with Him, how He wants relationship with us, and how He shares His power with us!

Our first stop after Jesus busts out of the tomb, is when Mary is at the empty tomb weeping. Jesus says her name and she runs to Him and tries to give Him a big hug.
In Verse 17: “Jesus said to her, “Do not cling to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father; but go to my brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’

The resurrection of Jesus was now accomplished, making it possible for all who believe to become brothers/sisters and joint heirs with Christ. 

In Galatians 4:7 it says, “You are no longer a slave but a son, and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ” 

We are children of God, we are redeemed from the curse, and we are co-heirs with Jesus. He immediately wants to share His kingdom with us!

Our second stop on the timeline is when we catch up with Jesus on the road to Emmaus. We see two dudes, Caiphas and his buddy Simon walking along. And Jesus strides right up next to them. Out of the blue. Like all of a sudden Jesus is just there, walking around like His grave don’t stink! It didn’t! Hear me by the Spirit!! They obviously weren’t paying attention because not only didn’t they know He came alongside them, they didn’t recognize Him as Christ. And Jesus asked them what they were talking about? He knew obviously, but He wants that connection. He wants that relationship with us where we engage Him and talk with Him like we would a friend. So they’re telling Jesus all about His trial, crucifixion, and death. And how they thought He was coming back but nobody has seen Him yet.
Then Jesus gets a little annoyed with them. He’s human, ya’ll! Fully man and fully God. So I picture Him throwing His arms up in exasperation. He says, “How foolish you are, and how slow to believe all that the prophets have spoken! Did not the Messiah have to suffer these things and then enter his glory?” And beginning with Moses and all the Prophets, he explained to them what was said in all the Scriptures concerning himself.”
So then right after that, Jesus continued right on walking after they turned towards their house. I think He was a little frustrated that they weren’t seeing the big picture. Scripture says, “Jesus continued on as if he were going farther.” Luke 24:28 So then they invited Him to stay for dinner. Jesus went because there’s healing in community. He didn’t take offense. He shows us how to get over it and stay in community even if it doesn’t look exactly how we see it. As long as there’s love and honor, we are supposed to stay engaged and love one another. Jesus picks up the bread and breaks it, gives thanks then He disappears. You see, at the last supper, it read a little differently. Before the tomb, In Matthew it says, “While they were eating, Jesus took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to his disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.”
27 Then he took a cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them, saying, “Drink from it, all of you. 28 This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. 29 I tell you, I will not drink from this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father’s kingdom.” Matthew 26:26-29.

In Luke 24:30-32, after Jesus got to Emmaus we see the same scene repeated but without the wine this time.
“When he was at the table with them, he took bread, gave thanks, broke it and began to give it to them. Then their eyes were opened and they recognized him, and he disappeared from their sight. They asked each other, “Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?”
His glory is revealed in Communion. When we remember He is there for us, wooing us by walking alongside us and showing up when we least expect it, it brings Him joy! And don’t we get so upset with ourselves when we hear that still small voice that we know is from the Lord, but we don’t fully realize it until after the moment passes? The symbolism of giving thanks and breaking the bread before His crucifixion versus after is interesting because prior to His crucifixion, Jesus also says to drink the cup of His blood, but not after because He won’t drink the new wine with them again until their in the kingdom together with the Father. In Emmaus we just see Him breaking the bread. I find it an odd juxtaposition that Jesus drank wine before He shed His blood but not after. It’s because He is the new wine. His holy word is there for us to feast on every day, the bread of life. But if we are not intentional about our relationship with Him, we miss out on the Kingdom wine! We miss out on the fresh revelations from having a conversation with Him. We should come boldly before the throne as it says in Hebrews 4:16, “Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.”
Jesus wants that relationship connection with us. I mentioned in my intro that I have the diagnosis of FOP. It’s a very rare disease where muscles turn into real bone, forming a second skeleton. I wasn’t supposed to live past age twelve according to doctors at the time. I had met Jesus at age five, around the same time I was diagnosed. I overheard the doctor tell my parents I wouldn’t make it past twelve. This seriously messed with my head a little bit. Coming up on my twelfth birthday, I thought I was supposed to die. I thought if I wasn’t dead by my birthday, I’d beat the disease to the punch and do it myself. Jesus called out, “But Tisa! I LOVE you! I don’t want you to die!!” And just like when I met Him at age five, and so often since, God’s love filled my heart to overflow. Relationship. He is invested in our lives. He values us and thinks we’re worthy. He pours His love into us! The enemy saw my value and tried to take me out. God wanted more for me and had bigger plans. That day, I promised Him I wouldn’t be cranky and that I would save myself for marriage. Both promises were kept. I guard my heart by keeping purity a priority in most circumstances. God healed me on the cross, but not because of anything I did. Because He loves me THAT much! It was prophesied over me twelve years ago that my healing would come in increments. Over the last twelve years, I have experienced this. Some of my limbs have become more mobile, more supple, and my pain is minimal. It used to be very severe. He healed that, too! He thinks about us as often as there are grains of sand. That’s love.

Our third stop on the timeline is when Jesus shared the power of the Holy Spirit with the disciples, and essentially us, on Pentecost. Pentecost means, “Fiftieth Day.” We celebrate it fifty days after Easter. Two promises are fulfilled on Pentecost. One promise is in the Old Testament – Joel 2:28, which says “I will pour out my Spirit on all people”, and one in the New Testament, where Jesus says he will send another Counsellor, the Spirit of truth (John 16: 5-15).
He shares His power with us! We’re all people.
In Acts 1:8, we see Jesus promise,
“But you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you.”

Acts 2:1-4, and 12-13 says,
“When the Day of Pentecost had fully come, they were all with one accord in one place.
2 And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting.
3 Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them.
4 And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.”
Then down to verse eleven-
“we hear them speaking in our own tongues the wonderful works of God.”
So then a bunch of people from all over started recognizing their own tongues. The scripture continues in verse twelve-

12 So they were all amazed and perplexed, saying to one another, “Whatever could this mean?”
13 Others mocking said, “They are full of new wine.”
New wine! There it is! And they’re still mocking Jesus because they still don’t understand. He wants to make us brand new! He released heaven on earth!

The last stop on our timeline shows another revelation of Jesus’ power after resurrection through His disciples after they are filled with the Holy Spirit.

Peter and John go to the temple to pray, and a lame man asked for alms. Peter said, “Silver and gold have I none, but such as I have I give thee! In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth rise up and walk!” And he went walking and leaping and praising God!
When everyone is tripping out about his healing and talking about it, Peter says they healed him in the name of Jesus who the people had just crucified. Peter said of the healed man, “Faith in His name has made this man strong.”

Jesus said in John 14:12,

12 Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.

I want to invite you to come boldly before the throne of Grace right now! If you haven’t asked Jesus into your heart before, or you have but never realized how much He loves you and wants to get to know you, ask Him now. Believe in your heart that He not only died on the cross for our sins, but for our diseases, too. Repeat after me, “You are Lord of my life!” Welcome to eternity. Dear Jesus, Thank You for making us coheirs of Your kingdom. Thank You for communion. For shedding Your blood and for being new wine. Thank You for sharing healing power with us. We ask You in this moment, God, to reveal Yourself to each person now. Fill our hearts with Your perfect love and peace. Download into our hearts one word for this next season. Holy Spirit, we ask You to guide us on our path, speak our name, and never let us forget that You love us so much! We ask for a healing touch right now, Lord. You live outside of our construct of time. You healed all of our diseases on the cross. Manifest that healing now for everyone listening and for their loved ones. Covid has no authority. Cancer has no authority. Diabetes, depression, FOP, shame, anxiety, and fear have no more power! I decree and declare that anyone listening now or on the replay will feel the manifest presence of God permeate every cell in your body right now! That the fire of the Holy Spirit will rain down on you in this moment and heal, save and deliver you. Thank you, Jesus for Your faithfulness and for being good at your job. Thank you so much for your time. All God’s blessings on your day!

I was just sitting here thinking about stuff, and an event with a friend crossed my mind. I made a mistake, and was cringing. I know this person forgave me , but even if they didn’t, I have to forgive myself, too. So just as I was cringing, Romans came to mind when it says, “Now, therefore, there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus.” And that scripture replaced and healed my cringy thought! This is what it means when it says in 2 Corinthians 10:5 to hold every thought captive. “We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”

Psalm 119:11 says, “Thy word have I hid in my heart, that I might not sin against Thee!”
The Psalms and Proverbs hold such wisdom. The parables of Jesus are so rich in their simplicity. Having scripture pop up like a notification to overcome bad thoughts is such a treasure! What an exquisite craftsman is He who loves us and thinks of us as often as grains of sand!
“How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand —
when I awake, I am still with you.”
Psalm 139:17-18

My year end assignment to sum up my Bethel journey- a poem.

You are the only place I
Know
Where Pure water catches fire

Intimacy precedes Your face
And draws us in
To an embrace like no other

The invitation is just a formality
God is already here
Singing, dancing, and rejoicing!

I see His face when I look
Into my mirror
He is the mirror
I am one in Him

His thoughts about me before time was our wedding announcement
When I met Him
baptized in fire,
our ceremony
Our honeymoon was Bethel

Oh how I learned to crawl up into Your lap and let You love me!
I learned how to abide in You
I learned how to speak words of knowledge and prophesy
I had the confidence to tell everyone I met how much You love them!
I learned to snuggle up close and praise You
I grew closer to Your heart and You increased my tent and my territory
You spoke words through my new friends who look like You, too
Thank You for Osofo Peter and his beautiful heart that I watched bloom for You
Thank You for all our Student Mentors who brought their own flavor and fragrance
For our teachers who have Your own heart
Thank You for wisdom
Thank You for love
Thank you for releasing heaven over us!

When you ask

If you can have just

A little bit

But not

All

You want the

Fruit without

The Vine

You want

Me

But not

My Source

It is all

Or nothing

You cannot

Dull the sun

Why would you

Ever

Want

A dull me?

I only know

How to give

All

He gave

His All to save us

Greater works

Are mine

That is

All

https://anchor.fm/onerecovery/message

I caught a glimpse of the sunrise
And it took my breath away
You are creator,
Majesty
In You, I find a way

I caught a glimpse of Your heart
And mine skipped a beat
You are love
Passion
In You, I feast.

I caught a glimpse of tomorrow
And my joy sparked!
You are there,
waiting with hope
In You, for You, because of You,
I am marked.

God is faithful. My friend Laura came to visit me tonight, so they moved my bed closer to the window. I had a full view of my roommate for the first time. I was at the window a few minutes early. I spoke a few words to her, and then she started tapping her cell phone on the table. I could see her, but she didn’t have a clear view of me. She started waving her white board side to side. I grabbed my phone and took a picture. She put it down in frustration. I zoomed in and read it, shocked I was able to capture it in the first place. I called the nurse right away. The nurse told me that the ventilator does all the work and it doesn’t move, etc. I said she’s really uncomfortable. My roommate kept making gestures and flailing her arms. The nurse suctioned the excess phlegm out of her throat. Success!! It was no coincidence Laura came when she came. It was no coincidence I was able to capture her sign as she flailed trying to breathe. And it was no coincidence I was her voice when she might have been dismissed. God is so faithful.

This is my uncle Daniel Wray’s song for my amazing, funny, witty, intelligent, loving and so many more adjectives it would fill the skies. My aunt Judy passed away from Alzheimer’s. I think of her often. My uncle, James Wray, her husband. Loved and adored her and took good care of her until the end. This song is a testament of their love. Strong and resilient, faithful and oh so true. This is true love walked out by two faith filled loving people, memorialized in song. ❤️❤️❤️

My relationship with Jesus has grown so intimate and deep. I attended the Dream Academy under Tony Robinson and the Ark Identity School under Travis Gluckler. Read a ton of amazing books, gotten deeper into God’s word, and started at the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry!! Lots of great sermons and worship at church from Pastor Chris Ritchie et al. And even though I got the vid, it gave me an opportunity to witness Jesus in two hospitals, releasing heaven over numerous lives. I pray daily for all lives affected. I didn’t watch the news nor get caught up in negative debates. I just kept it moving with Jesus in the driver’s seat.